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oegyeinjaemy habit of writing something on here in the middle of the night continues to stay true LOL
i'm trying to keep myself more busy during the day but it's been really hard. adhd + depression is a major combo which normally just leads me to laying in bed all day doing nothing even when i really want to do stuff. i've really wanted to write for like a week now but every time i go to i get distracted or just sit there and stare at the page till i give up. BUT, i do have some ideas for more of a schedule and i set up some alarms so hopefully i don't forget and can force myself to do them!
im getting back into studying korean which is exciting, i love the language and i know a good bit, but i've gotten super rusty so im starting from the beginning re-teaching myself everything, it's going better than i expected but yk it's only the first day. but i do remember everything i've started again so that's a good sign, and i finally set up my keyboard so i can actually type properly which is gonna be a great thing for practicing.
i've also just started a new show and a new book which im hopeful i can actually finish and finish in a decent timeframe. the show is "falling into your smile" a friend recommended it to us and its really good so far, i loveeeeee the main girl she's so cute and her personality is so fun. also i have a little crush on one of the guys which i think is funny because i feel like he's barley going to be relevant... but that's okay! i think he's silly though. the book we started is called "what moves the dead" it's interesting but i'm not super sold on it yet. i'm not very far yet so im gonna continue but the writing style seems not like something i'm super into. still i've been want to read it for a while so im gonna power through to see if i can like it.
i've been really on and off with how i've been feeling, but generally i think im doing okay! we upped our meds, and are starting some new ones so im hopeful those will help! we feel like we actually have a sort of game plan with our mental health and idk it's not gonna get crazy better, we've kind of come to terms that this is just going to be our life forever, but if it can get a little better and maybe things can be okay then maybe it'll be alright.
constantly thinking about lee as im known to do, but for a while there i was having trouble actually formulating my thoughts and it made me worry that maybe i was loosing interest in him or something. i don't think that's the case though. i wanna make a big long post about our relationship and how i feel about him but that's gonna take me some time, but when i do post it i'll probably put it here and also on pillowfort.
i'm like chomping at the bit for the new caleb myth to come out in lads and i'm prepared to waist all of the diamonds i have saved up on it, but tbh that's the whole reason ive been saving them. fingers crossed i get those cards without too much difficulty because im running out of ways to grind for diamonds lol. AND when that myth comes out maybe i can make a big long post about it and like analyze it, because i think that would be fun and i love all the symbolism and stuff surrounding calebmc. they make me sick. goddddddd the event trailer makes me crazy wahhhhhhh
i'm gonna try to do check ins here frequently, but i also reallyyyyyy want to fandom post more so if anyone has any naruto or mha questions or thoughts maybe share them with me and i can ramble on about my mha/naruto opinions. i fear im someone who needs prompting to talk about things, it's because my brain doesn't work... but id love to yap!
sending everyone a good vibe! ~
i'm trying to keep myself more busy during the day but it's been really hard. adhd + depression is a major combo which normally just leads me to laying in bed all day doing nothing even when i really want to do stuff. i've really wanted to write for like a week now but every time i go to i get distracted or just sit there and stare at the page till i give up. BUT, i do have some ideas for more of a schedule and i set up some alarms so hopefully i don't forget and can force myself to do them!
im getting back into studying korean which is exciting, i love the language and i know a good bit, but i've gotten super rusty so im starting from the beginning re-teaching myself everything, it's going better than i expected but yk it's only the first day. but i do remember everything i've started again so that's a good sign, and i finally set up my keyboard so i can actually type properly which is gonna be a great thing for practicing.
i've also just started a new show and a new book which im hopeful i can actually finish and finish in a decent timeframe. the show is "falling into your smile" a friend recommended it to us and its really good so far, i loveeeeee the main girl she's so cute and her personality is so fun. also i have a little crush on one of the guys which i think is funny because i feel like he's barley going to be relevant... but that's okay! i think he's silly though. the book we started is called "what moves the dead" it's interesting but i'm not super sold on it yet. i'm not very far yet so im gonna continue but the writing style seems not like something i'm super into. still i've been want to read it for a while so im gonna power through to see if i can like it.
i've been really on and off with how i've been feeling, but generally i think im doing okay! we upped our meds, and are starting some new ones so im hopeful those will help! we feel like we actually have a sort of game plan with our mental health and idk it's not gonna get crazy better, we've kind of come to terms that this is just going to be our life forever, but if it can get a little better and maybe things can be okay then maybe it'll be alright.
constantly thinking about lee as im known to do, but for a while there i was having trouble actually formulating my thoughts and it made me worry that maybe i was loosing interest in him or something. i don't think that's the case though. i wanna make a big long post about our relationship and how i feel about him but that's gonna take me some time, but when i do post it i'll probably put it here and also on pillowfort.
i'm like chomping at the bit for the new caleb myth to come out in lads and i'm prepared to waist all of the diamonds i have saved up on it, but tbh that's the whole reason ive been saving them. fingers crossed i get those cards without too much difficulty because im running out of ways to grind for diamonds lol. AND when that myth comes out maybe i can make a big long post about it and like analyze it, because i think that would be fun and i love all the symbolism and stuff surrounding calebmc. they make me sick. goddddddd the event trailer makes me crazy wahhhhhhh
i'm gonna try to do check ins here frequently, but i also reallyyyyyy want to fandom post more so if anyone has any naruto or mha questions or thoughts maybe share them with me and i can ramble on about my mha/naruto opinions. i fear im someone who needs prompting to talk about things, it's because my brain doesn't work... but id love to yap!
sending everyone a good vibe! ~
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Date: 2026-03-25 01:12 pm (UTC)Good luck on learning Korean! I also wanna learn other languages (Japanese, BR!Portuguese, Polish, etc etc), but am struggling hard to actually pratice ._. I do have a safe in Hollow Knight that is BR!Portuguese, so I should get back to that soonish.
I hope things get better for you <3 sending you good vibes back!
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Date: 2026-03-25 04:50 pm (UTC)thats a good idea though! even if i cant use it at least i get something written down.
korean has been something ive been learning for a while my biggest issue is remembering things. i recognize them when i hear them but actually remembering them off the top of my head is hard, i always find myself having to look up words to remind myself. i loveeee writing in korean though, its one of my favorite things and id love to write a full story or fic in korean one day.