spirituality, kinning, & plurality
Mar. 21st, 2026 03:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
oegyeinjaei'm trying to get more comfortable posting here. on one hand it feels like i need to be more methodical about what i post and how i post it, but i know that's not true, i can and should post whatever i want so i want to force myself to do that. so sorry if this is rambly.
for the longest time we thought we had a lot of fictives in our system, that has proven to maybe not be so true now, but the experience gave us a lot of insight on being a fictional character. kinning has always been something we experience but the intensity, for lack of a better word, of it has always changed. i think a lot of it has to do with our lack of sense of self, but i know that's being certain fictional characters is a big part of us and its integral to who we are, collectively and individually.
now that we're trying to understand our plurality in a way that's not only making more sense to us but also in a way that is making our system more stable it's given us a better sense of self, which lets us really pinpoint and understand our fiction kin identities. it's also letting us explore our spirituality in a way we never really thought about exploring. i can look at a character and really understand that that' me, in a real tangible way. there are still lots of characters that specific members of our system feel more connected to, but even the ones that feel connected to my sys mates still feel like me in a way, and i think that directly ties into our spiritual beliefs. we DO believe that these characters were us in another life, and we also believe that our parts were us in another life too, and that makes us feel so much more confident in our fictional identities AND our plurality.
that character is me, in the same way that an alter in our system is me. they're part of the whole that makes up who we are now but also who we were in our other lives. and while i'm scared to lose these parts of me, weather that be to fusion of our system, or moving on from this life, i want to truly believe that these parts that make me up now will continue to make me up in the next life, because i do believe these parts have been with me throughout any and all lives i've lived.
i really do love being able to look at a character and see myself as them. it brings me closer to myself in a way, and it also brings me closer to the things i've grown to love. i love being fictionkin, even if just like our plurality it causes a mix of emotions and it's own complications. spirituality, plurality, kinning, and the intersection of the three all lets me understand myself in a way that i never really have been able to before, and it feels so good to finally be able to feel like im getting a grasp on who we are.
do you all have any fictionkins? is it spiritual for you? is your plurality spiritual for you?
for the longest time we thought we had a lot of fictives in our system, that has proven to maybe not be so true now, but the experience gave us a lot of insight on being a fictional character. kinning has always been something we experience but the intensity, for lack of a better word, of it has always changed. i think a lot of it has to do with our lack of sense of self, but i know that's being certain fictional characters is a big part of us and its integral to who we are, collectively and individually.
now that we're trying to understand our plurality in a way that's not only making more sense to us but also in a way that is making our system more stable it's given us a better sense of self, which lets us really pinpoint and understand our fiction kin identities. it's also letting us explore our spirituality in a way we never really thought about exploring. i can look at a character and really understand that that' me, in a real tangible way. there are still lots of characters that specific members of our system feel more connected to, but even the ones that feel connected to my sys mates still feel like me in a way, and i think that directly ties into our spiritual beliefs. we DO believe that these characters were us in another life, and we also believe that our parts were us in another life too, and that makes us feel so much more confident in our fictional identities AND our plurality.
that character is me, in the same way that an alter in our system is me. they're part of the whole that makes up who we are now but also who we were in our other lives. and while i'm scared to lose these parts of me, weather that be to fusion of our system, or moving on from this life, i want to truly believe that these parts that make me up now will continue to make me up in the next life, because i do believe these parts have been with me throughout any and all lives i've lived.
i really do love being able to look at a character and see myself as them. it brings me closer to myself in a way, and it also brings me closer to the things i've grown to love. i love being fictionkin, even if just like our plurality it causes a mix of emotions and it's own complications. spirituality, plurality, kinning, and the intersection of the three all lets me understand myself in a way that i never really have been able to before, and it feels so good to finally be able to feel like im getting a grasp on who we are.
do you all have any fictionkins? is it spiritual for you? is your plurality spiritual for you?
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Date: 2026-03-22 05:42 pm (UTC)Not really in a spiritual sense(?), but c!Aphmau from Minecraft Diaries is pseudo-directly responsible for my existance so she'd, be a psychological kin I think?
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Date: 2026-03-22 11:04 pm (UTC)also i don't know if they're kins, or fictives or something else entirely but there are definitely mcd and other aphmau series characters that we definitely relate to pretty heavily so that's so cool!
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Date: 2026-03-23 02:41 am (UTC)Yayyyy another Aphmau fan :D!! I'm still getting started with MCD & planning on getting into MyStreet + My Inner Demons. But my headmates got fairly far with MCD so I am spoiled regardless lmao.
Do you have advice for figuering out your kins? I'm trying to use fictionkin.org as a guide. But still am curious on your process :3c
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Date: 2026-03-23 04:10 pm (UTC)that's a really good guide! there is a ton of useful info there. i'm not sure if im the best person to ask about it, usually our kins start off really not serious, just being things/characters/ whatever that i/we relate to and then eventually we just get hit with "this IS me and i know that for a fact". we normally claim a lot of things as like "kin for fun" things, and then some of them just turn out to be way more than that. with our most prevalent kin at the moment (karin from naruto) a lot of our memories are not really canon compliant so it kind of came down to feeling very strongly about things that i should have no idea happened in "canon" or things that i know for sure didn't happen if i was basing it solely off of "canon". but also kinshifts are a big thing for me too! we're kinda use to feeling off physically, but if we think about it we can also associate that off feeling to not feeling chakra the way we're supposed to, which yk aligns with that specific kin. if you feel off asking yourself questions like "would this attribute that this character has explain this feeling?" like if your hands feel weird, would having bigger hands like this character make you feel better? examining a potential kins physical attributes and then going through where your current body may feel weird can maybe help you associate the weird feelings with the character, if they are connected. also i don't think there's anything wrong with kinning for fun either, so if you just feel like the character you're allowed to associate yourself with them, and if it turns out to be something more great! and if not that's okay too. obviously it is distressing not knowing somtimes, but if you can be okay in a little bit of uncertainty that's an okay way to be too :}
sorry yap fest, but i hope maybe that helps a little.
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Date: 2026-03-23 07:01 pm (UTC)Sorry if I implied Kinning For Fun is a bad thing! You actually got me to realize I don't judge ppl for that & thus I shouldn't judge myself for it either :3
Also I feel like you gave good advice. Memories can be, fuzy, so focusing on sensations/perseptions should be more helpful or unlock other things. Also I doubt some of my spiritual kins are canon compliant either lmao.
I don't mind the yap! It felt insightful ^^
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Date: 2026-03-24 07:55 am (UTC)also sorry i didnt think that, we didn’t mean to come off as mean or anything! im glad you feel that way though! it can be fun and like we said it could also help you figure out something more too which i think is cool!
im glad it was helpful though :3 good luck trying to figure anything out and id love to hear more about your kin journey or experience if you ever wanna talk about it :D